she's been everybody else's girl
ED books from the library…
Holy Hunger
Living Room
How I Live Now
Massive
Mercy Unbound
Zero
Have you ever read any of these books? What did you think? I’m starting Massive now, which I read maybe seven years ago, but have already forgotten about.
Also, does anyone remember an juvenile ed book about a girl with bulimia, the cover has her eating a cookie, and then flipped on the bottom, like a Queen on a playing card, is a skeleton with a finger in its’ mouth?
horrible horrible eating day yesterday. but i’m over it, i have to be. turning today around. already started out on the right foot. going food shopping in a bit, making only good choices. i NEED to do this!
Bad night last night. Went to bed around 2am after hemming and hawing over whether to pull an all-nighter. Decided to eat something. Made “lean” pizza. Then ate m&ms. A whole lot of them. I’ve had three bad food days, ironically since I started my “motivational” tumblrs.
I can’t believe I used to do this every day. I’d have less than 500 calories and walk three miles on top of various other secret bedroom exercises. I’d hardly eat any fat, I wouldn’t binge or even desire any bad food. It was like my cravings were gone. I always felt so hungry and had hunger pangs, but I loved it. My motivation was through the roof and I was so happy to do it.
Now I feel like my motivation is wavering. I want it so bad, but I’m afraid I still don’t want it bad enough.
I napped from 5:30pm to 9:00pm today.
It’s now 12:30am, and I have to be up by 7am to get ready for work. I’ll be at minor meetings from 9am to 2:30pm, and after I can go home and do what ever I want (nap or stay awake).
Should I go to sleep for five hours and try to drag my ass out of bed or stay up? What would you do?
THIS.urls and passwords to progress blogs in my ask??? pleeeeeeeeeease! I love them they’re so inspiring :)
PLEASE?!?!? i’ll exchange with mine!
watching skins right now. not sure why we all have such an obsession with cassie…
but i love cassie.
easy now
today i woke up late. i made it through about 30 jumping jacks before the pain of my boobs slapping around made me throw in the towel. i’ve had 820 calories today and probably 7 10 cans of diet coke. working my way through season four of sex & the city. the cat litter has some perfume stink thats wafting through the air and making me sick. i’d rather smell the ammonia. hey remember the episode where steve gets his ball cut off cause he has stage one cancer? here’s hoping two pounds down by next weigh in.



